Pre-wedding jitters #1

My favorite ways to pass the time on the L are to read a girly magazine or daydream about my wedding. The other day I was daydreaming about walking down the aisle in this one particularly precious gown when a beep-beep-beeping from below my blouse brought me back to reality. That silly insulin pump of mine! It always finds a way to send me a noisy warning at the most inopportune times. Like when I'm in a meeting with my editor (happened last week) or when I'm on the L and too cramped to break out my pump paraphernalia. The occasion for this round of beeps was a low reservoir meaning I had 9 hours of insulin left in my pump. Sometimes it beeps if the battery is low, sometimes it beeps if there's a lot of static in the air, and sometimes it just beeps. For the fun of it.

This got me to thinking (panicing): My pump is 100%, for sure going to beep when I'm walking down the aisle. I can see it now - everyone glancing to the back of the room as I approach the aisle. Queue the strings. OOh, ahh. Tear. Beep-beep-beep. At which point I have to shove my hand down my skin tight dress and turn the darn thing off. (Side note: I plan to have a special pump-equipped bra for the big day.) Although my mother assures me that we will do everything possible to prevent such drama, I am already mentally prepared. These things happen to me.

What I really pray for, even more than a pump that cooperates with me on my wedding day, is a healthy day. No highs, no lows. Sugars in the 90-120 range would be perfect. Thanks to President Bush and his immoral veto of H.R. 810 a few days back, my blood sugars soared. I was furious, crushed, and the reading on my meter reflected just that. Stem cell research offers opportunities too great to ignore. President Bush betrayed millions of people with his decision and not just people with chronic illnesses like myself but parents, friends-- anyone and everyone who believes in the power of scientific research. If my pump makes so much as a peep during my wedding, I'm blaming it on the president!